A Different Kinda Night

Tonight, I felt rather sorry for myself. This is not myself, I’ve not been like this before. I have learnt to appreciate whatever I have, but tonight, I couldn’t for this one matter.

I am twenty this year, I was never really allowed to go to any concerts or any celebrity events, things like that. Especially when it’s at night. I’ve been to two shows, David Archuleta’s showcase in the afternoon and MTV WorldStage, the one where Justin Bieber came. Both times with adult supervision. I’ve had tickets for an event but still I didn’t attend.

I get it why I’m not allowed to go alone, the safety in Malaysia is not the best and in the big events, there are lots of people. Reason two is transportation. Which makes everything so difficult. Lastly, these event tickets can be quite pricy.

But tonight, I saw this advertisement on the Race Start autograph session in Paradigm, this doesn’t require money, of course there is no guarantee that I would actually see the Running Man stars. If I have not mentioned, I’m a huge Running Man fan.

I’ve known for a while now that they’re coming here for the event. Some of the members have been here before this but I didn’t tell anyone that I wanted to go because like always, I wouldn’t be able to go and it’s expensive, and transportation issues. So I never said anything even though I would like to go to an event. (Regarding on me driving, that’s a whole other story for another time.)

After that advertisement, I burst out into tears. Silent tears. By the time my mum and sister realise I had already stopped crying then they asked me what happened then I started crying again. I don’t know what has gotten into me. I don’t ask for much, I just want to go to Paradigm to see if I have a chance to even just have a glance at them. Even if I don’t, I know I tried. It’s enough for me.

This might be such a childish thing but right now to me, it means something. I don’t like this feeling. In fact, I hate it.


Wish list or dream list?


This afternoon, I have been day dreaming a lot. On things I obviously can’t afford right now (hopefully in the future I can). So I decided to share them here! Wish list, more like dream list.

Chanel Flap Bag, credits to the rightful owners.

Firstly, it has to be the Chanel Classic Flap Bag. I’ve been wanting this for quite a long time now. Hehe. I think they are just the prefect classic go to bag. So elegant. Right now, I’m totally loving these, even though I think the black ones are really nice too.

Trench Coat, credits to the rightful owners.

Next up is a Burberry trench coat. This is definitely not needed in my wardrobe because in Malaysia, it’s waaaay too hot to be wearing a trench coat but I’ve worn my trench coat once or twice, hehe (not Burberry). Even though I have one but it’s just not the same as the Burberry one. It’s timeless and it looks so beautiful. Choose a picture of Emma Watson because I love her!

Classic Pumps, credits to the rightful owners.

A pair of Christian Louboutins have been on my list for the longest time. I love heels and I think Christian Louboutins are so classy with the red sole. And they have really cool selection of heels and sneakers. 😀

Blair Waldorf’s Harry Winston engagement ring, credits to the rightful owners.

Ring. Thanks to Gossip Girl, I’ve been looking at Harry Winston’s rings since then. So so beautiful! I like these two the best, click here and here. I don’t think you need to wait for someone to buy you a ring you like, get it for yourself if you like. Thought I would add this because someone said buying a ring for yourself is pathetic. Err, not in my opinion. Do whatever you like!

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Last but not least, a Louis Vuitton personalised Speedy Bandoulière 35 Mon Monogram. My whole day dream started with this. My sister was playing around with the Longchamp personalise bag page and got me into it, except I personalised a LV instead. I had fun playing with this on their website. I’ve always wanted a LV Speedy 25 but now I like the one I personalised better. 😀 If you’d like to have a go yourself, click here. 🙂 ps. I think white goes with any other colour. 😉

Maybe someday I’ll be able to get myself all these goodies, until that day, I’ll just keep dreaming. 🙂

What are on your wish list? Would love to see. 🙂

ps. None of the pictures are mine except for the screenshot of the personalised LV bag.

Till next time.